Transition Zone

 It has been that long. 

Many have asked, how is life ? Is your working life good. I could not provide any long answer but a smile and I hope that gave a summary of everything. It is a genuine smile before you think I smirk, anyway. 

Life has always been what you plant in your mind. Positive thoughts will give you a good life and vice versa.

I understand that as human being, we, sometimes can be very negative especially when we are tired and burn out. It is human norm but do not let that feelings stay because if you do it will continue to drag you into darkness like the black hole. Impossible to come out. 

If you ask me about working life, it is never that working itself that made it hard. It is the transition of your life that you need to adapt to, that I believe need you, yourself to be strong. 

First and foremost, when you are working, you now have responsibilities as compared to when you are studying. My job required me to work and study at the same time, I guess some are like that too. Initially, during the process of adapting, it felt burdensome. Honestly, I do have the thought of quitting when I first started. Even sometimes, up until now when life gets hard especially when assessment month is just around the corner, I felt like raising the white flag each time. However, you got to teach yourself to be strong. Find that positivity that can build you up be it from friends, family, movies, food or anything that is helping and remove yourself from all those negative vibes. As a muslim, praying and seek for His help at all time, it soothe my mind and I hope, you too. Every time you go through a test and difficulty, you will  be stronger. The moment you look down one day, you will be at awe on how far you have come and keep going. You are almost there!

Adult life or how do I put it in words, the world, is more than what you think it is. When you start to work, you will encounter a lot of people with different background, attitude, etiquette, heart. You can never read people and it is very wrong to judge but with experience you will know how to predict better. Be careful yet always be kind. In life, whatever you do, always choose to be kind. It goes a long way. Nevertheless, do not expect for any return as that will disappoint. Learn to be independent but know that someone, some people will always be there, beside you or behind you to support you. 

Goals. An important measure to which extend you are willing to go. Do have both short and a long term goals. I love what I do because I love my patients. It is a very complicated relationship, the most acceptable form of love-hate relationship. I hate them for coming 5 minutes before my time to go home, or when they just turn up at emergency at three in the morning saying that they are dizzy because they have been taking caffeinated drinks and they could not sleep, or when they just want to check whether their peeing tube is functioning or not when they have been draining lots of urine in a day. But I always worry about them, I am worried whether they are going to go back home alone, will they be good? Even if they come past my working time or during my off days, I will still come to see them because they are my responsibility. I always wanted the best for my patients. I want then to be comfortable. Imagine them coming late or on days when you are not working but you are mad and refused to attend them not knowing that they have to sacrifice their meals for that day just to come and see you. Because that money is all that they have and they spend it to come and see you. That is my short term goals, I work every day, I give my everything not because I want to be better than my other colleagues but because I want my patients to feel better and that their sacrifices are worth it. You will develop these feelings as you go along the way. The sense of responsibility. If you do not, you have to reflect back on yourself. Always remember, what if they are your family? 

In life, we cannot be selfish. Be selfless. Never think about your difficulty and sacrifices alone, because you will never know what some one else went through. 

Long term goals? Of course I always want to be the one who wore the scrub and hold the knife. That needs my own effort and we all have our own goals. I hope the goals that we set can bring us far from what we imagine. 

Last but not least, to have a good life, always put yourself first. Eat, sleep, have time for yourself.