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Fret not where the road will take you. Instead concentrate on the first step. That's the hardest part and that's what you are responsible for. Once you take that step let everything do what it naturally does and the rest will follow. Do not go with the flow. Be the flow. - A novel of Rumi, Forty rules of love, Elif Shafak Am I ready to let things go and start a new life on my own in a new place with a group of new people. I know I will and I can as long as I want it to be. Like how people always said where there’s a will, there’s a way. Yet, why do I feel like it's strenuous to even make a single move this time around?  I was trying hard to find thousand of reasons to move on.  This feelings somehow felt so familiar. It was the similar feeling when I have to force myself to move on from being too attached to my high school good friends to start a new life in a university. Miraculously, I did it. Perhaps, now I’m overly attached to those good buddies and best friend that ...

  January 12 th  2019, I came to Hanoi, Vietnam to spend my 5 days holiday there. I booked my flight ticket with Air Asia during the year end sale that they held in 2018. My cousin and I didn’t take a lot of time to finally decide to go to Hanoi. We actually took about half an hour before we decided to say, Yes! To Hanoi we go! We were excited since it’s our first trip together. Like finallyyyy, as she was so busy with her work. However, when I was planning for our trip, I saw least blog that wrote about Hanoi, Sa Pa and Ha Long Bay. I get tiny amount of information by reading online. Worst of all, I get the eerie feeling of going to Hanoi since I read and heard a lot about scams, black magic, taxi drivers threatening tourist, double or even triple charges by vendors to tourist and the list goes on. Reading those horrible comments and experiences made me considering again whether we should go or just forget about the trip. Deciding to go on a trip like this with a tour ...

The people you met in life. You have got so many reasons to welcome them into your life and at the same time be willingly to open the door for them to walk out once the time has come to an end.  I always wanted permanent people in life. I used to have this phobia towards people leaving me after I became so dependent on them. (So close friends, please, stick around) It took me years to learn and accept that people comes and goes. I will always need to have those people who I can turn to even though we don ’t cling so tightly as I believe we always have dreams and achievements to go after in life so that whenever life is hard or when I stumble and fall,whenever I need a helping hand or an ear to listen, I know who to look for and to turn to. Despite that, knowing different people at different stage of your life is different. After all, I always believe in temporary people that came in our life to teach us something, once their purposes are done, they need to move on and so does ...

Hello there! Sorry for the long wait. So, here you go.  Here come an urgent story after a reflection made few weeks ago. I just felt the urge and the need for me to write and share this. As you know, I have been working in a pharmacy for quite sometimes now. It has been around 4 months I guess. Though definitely, I am extremely tired and I got no time to pamper myself, it gave me priceless experience. It’s a place that taught me to appreciate people, trust (this one I’ve got some issue with it too. Trust is basically not easy. It’s build over time so work hard to gain it) and respect people no matter who they are and their social status or educational background.  Initially, it feels like there’s nothing I can gain from working there. Not that I believe in all those supplements can help with diseases. These days, when I felt like I was doing a thing without having a benefit, I would start to do my own reflection. It was like a homework to me. Thank you to that one...

Before I start here, I would like to say I am sorry, that I am not being racist here. No intention like that at all. So here I am sharing with you guys my two cents regarding my childhood and maybe you have had similar childhood experience too. I admit that to be honest, I was raised by parents who would expect the best out of me behind their, “ I don’t mind” words. How do I know? I analyzed, observed and listened. With that, I understand what they wanted actually. Most of my family ( I mean huge family including cousins, aunties and uncle) were placed in a chinese school even from preschool years. Our parents believed that the chinese school has the best education system that of all can offer. Most of my cousins and relatives were able to complete their chinese education until high school except for me. I am an exclusion, I couldn’t fit and survive even during my preschool years. When I was in my psychiatry posting, I remembered that there was a young boy presented with d...

How ’s me? Life has been great so far Alhamdulillah. Indeed, when you let go of the painful things that you ’ve been holding on for so long, you’ll be at peace and you’ll be happy. Being dependent on a person is not good, you’ll feel lost once they are away. “What’s meant for you will reach you even if it’s beneath two mountains. What isn’t won’t reach you even if it’s between your two lips.” And so these words heal. Always. Anyway, Let’s start. I have been occupying my holidays doing a few things at once right now. It all started as a volunteer with the Sarawak Children Cancer Society (SCCS) at the hospital. There, I knew a few doctors and pharmacists. These doctors enjoyed dragging me around in their rounds and clinics but I don’t really haha. So, these doctors has got a lot of on hold project for the community that they wanted to arrange but they ain’t got no time for that. Thus, they asked me to arrange it for them. This year, it was about the health fair project 2...