" No one can tell your story so tell it yourself. No one can write your story so write it yourself"

Have a little faith in yourself. For a better future, I believe that most of us have work really hard. But at times, you are going to feel a little bit tired inside. Then, there are the people out there who will start to look down and make you feel a little less confident about yourself. Dear self, No matter how hard you feel it could be or how tired you are inside, no matter how many people think that you cannot do it, stand strong. Don't let the negativity bring you down. When people or even the world have stop believing in you, you have to have faith in yourself even for a tiny bit. You have to give the chance to yourself even for a hundred times. That's how you can survive. People may question your action, they may doubt your knowledge. But only you can be certain of the things that you have. It is good at times to have people to judge you because sometimes your own judgement might not be true. You might not acknowledge that you are lack of certain things. Somet...

I am about to finish my community posting. For this posting, I can say it is special in so many ways. I learnt so many things during this posting out of all though it was so tiring. I was tired but I was having fun as well. Special things that I wanted to share here was that the adaptation process in this posting seemed to be fast. It was quite unbelievable for me myself. I never knew most of them previously yet I can talk with them like I knew them before.(But some of them knew me way before I introduced myself. I wonder what these people have been talking about me behind me) Some of them I don't even know that their name exist in my batch.Sorry but yeah I can be that ignorant. But eventually, we can joke around, play with each other and accept each other suggestions. Why I was so like excited with this things? I am not a usual person who can adapt to a changes in a short period of time. It will at least take a few months before I could knew them well and comfortably talk to t...

Trust are not meant to be taken for granted.   It is from an event of life that a person limit their trust to his/her circle of human of choice. As for me, I may be nice to everyone but my trust is not easy to be gained. Please appreciate people when they trusted you. The most important trust that you can never take for granted is from your parents.  For me, I appreciate when my parents trusted me more than anyone else. Whatever stories that they heard from other people, they choose to listen to me first and I can never exchange that with anything. Feel blessed and grateful for not all of us are given that specialty. Respect your parents as they are the person that should earn that without attempt. When they give you the freedom, do not misused it. It was not easy for them. I guess you will one day understand when you are in their shoes. As a daughter, I know I am not that good but whenever I am deciding things or doing something, the  people that will appear firs...

I made this choice. To be here. Do I ever regret it ? Should I ever regret it ? It gives me a tough time. I don't have a life like others do. bla bla bla Life is always a choice. You are the one who decide it. Whether or not it was influenced by others, at the end of the day when you reflect back, you are the one who made the choice. Taking medicine is a choice that I made years ago. A big decision that I made when I was young and impulsive. Influenced by all those dramas in TV that surely did not reflect the true struggles. But surely, there were nice stories from those seniors from school. Despite of all the negative things that I heard such as spending most your life with your books, sacrificing your leisure time for oncalls, teachings and again studying which is true at most time, not having a life like others and the worst things I heard was that you have to sleep with dead bodies before you could pass your degree (which is not true at all!!!, but silly me I believe it w...

A friend in need is a friend indeed. It's been a long time since I heard people used that proverb. The last time I heard people keep on using it was during SPM years when we are struggling to get an A+ for our essay. By putting those proverb or idiom, I have a high hope that my English teachers will be happy. Not sure if they really do as I never asked. Hehe. Have you ever thought why the proverb was made? Do read about the ambiguity of this so called proverb/idiom. I am also not sure do we call this proverb or idiom? Correct me if I am wrong. Been reading too much novel I forgot how proper English function. Well basically it means when a friend stay/help you when you are in need they are the true friend. I myself do not expect much from a person that I did not expect anything from. Haha. Difficult to understand? It just means I expect a lot from that person when I started to put my trust on him/her. When I allow you to know/explore my personal life, my past, my success and m...

I like how people talk about life to me. I like to appreciate every bits of words and adjectives they used to describe their life when talking to me. Things like how they describe their love towards their parents and family, how they overcome their problem, how they rise and fall in life really attract me. It was like reading a book but instead I just need to listen. Although sometimes I like to talk in between their speech but most of the time, believe me, I listen. When you really listen to what people tell you, you will get to learn a lesson from it. Part of me love to evaluate, (sometimes judge, I know it's bad but can't help. I am human.) process it and then learn the lesson. For someone that trusted me and I trusted them, I will TRY to advice though sometimes it doesn't really help. However, I know by lending my ears to listen to them, I help if not a lot just a little might do.  People make mistakes. I myself make a lot of mistakes in life. I myself am not th...

Life has been hard for me recently. I have been complaining about things that happen in my life everyday. I have many negative thoughts in my mind. But I am grateful that He send me people in my life aside from to cheer me up, they also make me realised that I should have been grateful with the life that I have. I agree that people do come in your life for a reason though. Good or bad, they came in your life to teach you a lesson. There's this one time, a friend of mine asked me to rate my quality of life. At that time, I was at my lowest point of motivation and i just rate it as lowest as possible. Then, this person ask me shouldn't you be grateful with what you own that other people might want to have it also. Although you have  to come early for class and study so many things with all the pressure put on you but have you ever thought of those who really wanted to be in your place, studying what you are studying and doing what you are doing but they were unable to do so d...