" No one can tell your story so tell it yourself. No one can write your story so write it yourself"

Oh, hey guysss. I'm backkkkk.I've been writing so frequently these days as I have so many things to share so that I can make it as my reference in the future and also to share with everyone. I really hope we all can learn something.  First and foremost, I'm just sharing that I am extremely happy today because one of the patient that I used to attend for the past 2 weeks can now be discharged healthily. I knew Mdm O and her family so well. She's a 99 years old lady who can remember this insignificant hidayah when she wanted to go back. Her daughter came to look for me to tell me that her mother wanted to see me before she went back. And when I wanted to go out, her daughter who was always there to look after her hold my hand and said, "Thank you doctor for you care, Thank you for your help, Thank you for seeing my mom when she's in pain. I hope to see you again someday later". So I said, "Sure, I'll be glad to see you and your mom later but not ...

“You do not want to punish or kill yourself while wanting to help other people, do you?” In regards to my previous post entitled ‘I promise’, today, I felt that somehow, I need to change the way I think not fully but partially. Every Thursday, those living (let's use this word living okay, it sounds a bit real) in geriatric ward will have a grand round with Prof Philip or what he refers to as Teaching round. That’s the ward round that I look up to each week. It’s not just that I can be away from walking around the ward doing ward works, I can also learn something about life which I somehow feel is important. He has got a lot of experience to share with us. And I can bet you that you can never get that from any book you read. I personally think that he always has his own interesting way to make us understand the lesson that he wanted us to learn about. So, today, he taught us about prioritizing our life. How did we end up discussing about this topic when initially w...

Pagi aunty! Ada chuan haa mlm tadi?   Manyak chuan ah doctor. Tak boleh tido.  Okay aunty. Sekarang ada manyak chuan ke?  Sekarang okay. That’s my daily conversation with an aunty for the past one month.  One afternoon, she asked me, “ Doctor ah makan.”  “Takpe aunty. Saya sudah makan.” lying is bad I know but that’s how I would make them eat without feeling guilty. “You pagi hari sudah mali, sampai ini petang ada lari sini sana bila you makan? Doctor, you kena makan baru kuat oh.” said an observant patient of mine.  “Okay aunty” I smile and I left. What’s left in the heart was, “ I know that I have to eat. I know that it will make me strong but I have to finish the most important things first. If I don’t take her blood, doctor can’t review the results in the afternoon and they can’t decide on further management for her. And that’s not good for her.” Being in geriatric ward taught me a lot. The day I realised that it’s n...

"I was trying to put myself in a bottle that would one day wash up on the beach for my children. If I were a painter, I would have painted for them. But I am a lecturer so I lectured. - Randy Pausch" These days, I used to spent a lot of time in the Book Xcess bookstore alone during the weekends. There, a lot of books are old and 'ancient' but still are practically useful for the current time. I coincidentally found this non-fiction book by Randy Pausch. It was displayed at the most top shelf with the words best selling books written on the shelf. 5 million copies of this book has been sold out. So, I thought there must be something interesting about this book. I just grab it, took the stool and sat at one of the corner to read it. Once I read the book page by page, it was so addictive that I couldn't stop. Each sentences struck me right in the heart. By the time I realized I should stop and just buy that book, I have already read half of the book. It was t...

When you come to a place which is not home to you with a good intention, you will get more than what you are looking for.   "If it is time for you to go, leave willingly - as you would to accomplish anything that can be done with grace and honor." "Leave your country in search of loftiness and travel. For in travel there are five benefits: Relief of adversity, earning of livelihood, knowledge, etiquettes, and noble companionship."  [Imam As-syafie]

“Hello, amoi, you mau bikin baju ke?” I was welcome with that question. A few days ago, when I was given a few weeks off from classes, I decided to come back home to spent that little amount of time that I have with my family. On one of the days, I have some alone time to spent as my parents and brother were busy with their own schedule. I have got nothing in plan to do. Thus, I decided to go to China Town located in Kuching City. It was just 15 minutes away from my house. It was called China town as most of the shops there were occupied by the chinese sellers. (we do have our own India street anyway hehe) I have a reason of why I choose to go there. I have heard for quite sometimes that there is a chinese boutique that is famous for the hand-made kebaya. It has been operating for the past 40 years. It was owned by a chinese lady named Mui Mui. I guess she’s currently in her mid 70’s. She has made a kebaya that cost thousands ringgit malaysia. So I just went there to have ...

If you count the blessings in life, you can never finish. I have just finished my final medical professional exam when I was writing this. The tense that the professional exam gave you was not cool at all kids and dear readers. Maybe true, it depends on people. I took it very seriously and I believe all of us do. I always wanted to be a doctor and I do not want to disappoint myself especially, and of course my parents. But, they never push me. I remember that when I cried the night before clinical exam started, my dad said that no matter what happen in the end, you failed or you get kicked out or you passed your exam with flying colours, you will always be my daughter. Remember that. I will remember that for life. I will remember how my mother called me to check on me every single hours to make sure that I am okay. Blessed to have such a great and supportive family. Maybe you would wonder, where are all your friends? I purposely do not want to disturb any of them and I know the nerv...